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[personal profile] cinema_babe
And soon it will be my birthday, and then his birthday, and then Fall and Christmas and he will be dead a year and then a decade and then one day I'll be gone and our most intimate shared memories will go with me....

And today it's a day short of a decade. Sometimes it feels like it's been 20 years, other times it feels like it's only been 1.

I'm 1000 miles from home and I still have a pair of his woolen sock, when it gets very cold I wear them. When they fall apart, I really won't have anything left but memories, but it's no longer the unthinkable eventuality it would have been 10 years ago. It's like a divot the grass has grown over and hidden; the scar from that hurt will always be there but only I know it.

And so it should be.

Date: 2017-03-08 06:22 am (UTC)
ashbet: (Held)
From: [personal profile] ashbet
*gentle hugs* <3

Date: 2017-03-08 10:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Beautiful grieving you have incorporated into your heart.

Date: 2017-04-10 05:53 pm (UTC)
cz_unit: (Default)
From: [personal profile] cz_unit
Wow. I still have a few small things to remind me of Brian, it's been over ten years now myself, the pain has lessened a lot, but there is always that little small house on the hill in my mind. Quiet, but still there. Hopefully I'll meet him again there someday and get to say hello....


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