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Pretty much everyone on my LJ friends list is on the East Coast, actually all of them are. So why do I bother to check my friends page at 2:15am? I suspect that I'm the only person not working who's still up at this hour.

It's not even here yet and already I'm sick of winter. I can't imagine how crazed I'll be by mid February.

I've been feeling very bummed out about Christmas this year but tonight a weird thing happened. I sat down at a computer in the lab and booted it up only to find that someone had left a Christmas CD in it. The first song that came on was The Chipmunks "Christmas Don't Be Late". Right after came "Christmas Wrapping" by The Waitresses.

I'm still smiling. I feel warm and snuggled in my heart. Who knew that 3 cartoon rodents could do that to me? I certainly didn't. God/The Universe/Insert Your Favorite Concept Here gives you what you need when you least expect it.

I've had better Christmases then the one I'll have this year, I'll have better ones in the future but maybe this year won't be as bad as I thought after all. As long as I can hear The Chipmunks, how bad can it be?
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Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last week I stole [ profile] sanityseeker's purse (-30 points). Last Wednesday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Last Tuesday I helped [ profile] tactisle hide a body (-173 points). In March I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In November I helped [ profile] yohannon across the street (6 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-168 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!


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I'm smart, sexy as hell, beautiful (in a voluptuous girl next door sort of way, can I get a big Hell Yeah!), have a voice like an angel and apparently Santa is giving me the shaft this year (and not in the 'high hard one' sort of way I enjoy) Well, big man, that's okay I like helping my LJ friends hide bodies and cross the street. The purse thing was a mistake, a terrible terrible mistake, um sort of.

Bring it on, I'm not scared of you and your stinkin' elves! We'll see who gets the spanking this year buddy!
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**The following is a revision of a letter I sent a good friend. Egomaniac that I am, as I was rereading it, I thought, "hmmmm, I should put this in my blog." So there you are my email to R preserved for posterity(ish).**

This year has been a roller coaster for me and a lot of people I care about but I still feel that I have a lot to be thankful for. Perfection and perpetual tranquility would be boring. Though maybe I've have had a bit *too much* drama in my life at times, this year will certainly be something for the memoirs.

The Obligatory List......
I am grateful for friendship, of course. My friends know stuff about me but love and support me anyway.

I am grateful that in three weeks (all else being equal) I will be a college graduate. I am equally grateful that by next spring I hope to be accepted into one or more graduate schools

I am grateful for my FWB because he's an interesting guy who can hold his end of a conversation and being sexually objectified again is *thrilling!!*

I am grateful for second acts in life, second chances, do overs and change being thrust upon me.

I am grateful for my entire family, including my crazy mother. My mom might be heavily prozaced but in her craziest moment I know she'd lay down her life for me.

I am grateful to my ex husband because he taught me just how much I can bear for love. I will always love him more than he could ever know but must left him to save my tattered self worth. This whole experience has broken me into all but sand but made me more human than anyone knows

I'm grateful for the best big brother I never had. He lets me talk and talk and talk and talk ( and he listen's real well too!)

Shit, I'm just grateful to be alive :)

Skoal, my friends, skoal

Indulge Me

Nov. 19th, 2005 09:35 pm
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I was going to post the Christmas List meme that I read on one of those lists that I haunt.....

I really got bummed out. Since I've been an adult and put the hive mind that is Jehovah's Witnesses behind me, this is my favorite time of the year. I love the all the prep leading up to Christmas. Even when I was so sick last year I managed to find put together some pretty nice gift bags for everyone.

Needless to say this year will be different. My impulse is to hide in my room and not come out but I'm not going to do that. The people who don't know we're getting divorced will have to know sooner or later and we may as well start telling them before the Anniversary cards start coming in. (We would have been married 7 years on December 4th)

So anyway..... when I began to think about what I wanted for Christmas and the first thing that popped into my mind? A new home; someplace that is clean and safe and mine; someplace where no one will yell at me and my heart can be broken in private. Most of the rest of the things on my list are similarly mundane.

On one hand I feel so pathetic that the first wish I have is for a home and on the other hand I feel empowered because I know what I need and I know how to ask for it. I guess that's part of my the dichotomous nature. I only bring this up because the advice I've given to countless people to throw what they need out to the universe and now I have people giving it back to me. So I'm going to post what I really want for Christmas on my meme and rather then close my eyes and wait for it to fallout of the sky, now that I know what *it* is, I need to go out and get it.

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