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I gave myself 60 seconds to "List 10 Things I Cannot Live Without."

I know that, biologically at least, I could live without these things but they lie on that boundary between living and being alive and engaged for me. I have lived a dutiful life of mild satisfaction and it was, in its own way, a good life. But, I am challenging myself to live a life beyond the mild okay and be more fully engaged.

I want to feel my nerve endings twinkle and throb.

(These are in no particular order.)
1. Culture & Art (as I define it for me): movies, books, music, food, good whiskey and good wine, etc
2. A good sleep
3. Sunlight shining through jewel toned glass
4. Candle flame
5. The shore
6. Human contact (much more than I allow myself to have and more than I want to admit this occasionally, but I am getting better at this.)
7. Sensuality and Sexuality; That feel of laying flesh to flesh with another person)
8. 2:37 am
9. Computer technology and all it's assorted toys

Feel free to steal this and use it in your own blog if you like.
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Since I've been doing a good bit of navel gazing lately, I thought it might be fun to re-post my first LiveJournal Post. Back in October no one even knew that I was here let alone who I was. (Okay, so still no one knows who I am, including me!)

And yeah, I'm ripping off Howard Stern too, heh-heh.

Anyway, here, behind an LJ cut because it's longish, is My first LJ entry. I have added on to a couple of the points and that is duly
noted. Enjoy!

Post: The First )


Oct. 17th, 2005 01:42 am
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I love music, I think it's in my DNA as I come from at least 4 generations of performers. If I wasn't so chickenshit, maybe I could have actually supported myself as a musician. Of course, maybe not. Anyway, I've been thinking about how I never thought I'd pay for radio but it's becoming an increasingly attractive option in my area. I actually like the narrowcasting services like XM radio provide. This led me to thinking about music I love and music I hate.

The following 3 songs are an abomination to all humankind and if there's a God in heaven someone is paying for them right now. I don't know what's more disturbing, these songs or the fact that I remember them.

1. Alone Again, Naturally - Gilbert o'Sullivan: A suicide note set to music. Nice.
2. Run Joey Run - David Geddes: they should BEAT the ass clown who produced this piece of dreck. I want to know whose idea it was to have the heavenly choir singing the dead pregnant girl up to heaven at the end.
3. I've Never Been to Me - Charlene: Oooo, this one is like nails on a blackboard to me. A high class call girl wailing
about how empty her life is.

Lucky for me there's a *much* bigger pool of music I like. I could never list all my favorites but here are a few

1. Voices Carry - 'Til Tuesday: Did I ever mention that I was raised as Jehovah's Witness? No, I'm not kidding. Did I mention that I know what it's like to love someone so much and to know that their love for you is conditional? Did I mention how you can feel your soul die sowly an inch at time when you live like that? When Aimee Man sings, "He wants me if he can keep me in line" I want to burst out in tears because I've could have written those words.

2. Everbody Wants to Rule the World - Tears for Fears: 1985, late summer, I'm driving my big old rust bucket of a car on some highway headed somewhere with a duffel bag packed with a couple changes of underwear, a clean shirt, a toothbrush and a couple of other toiletries. There's no itinerary, no plans, I'm just flying with my wild hair flapping in the breeze like some kind of crazy flag. I've got a job that I hate (and will quit while I'm laying in a hospital bed with a bleeding ulcer) and about $200.00 to my name ($150.00 of which is in my pocket.) I love my life as it is today but, I don't think I have ever felt so young and free. I had this song on a cassette and I played it over and over again.

3. We Shall Overcome: Just read the lyrics. The ultimate Fuck You Song! There is *nothing* you can say or do to stop me. I will prevail. Just thinking about it makes me feel stronger and more empowered

4. You Get What You Give - The New Radicals: When I was going through my cancer treatment, I'll spare you the gross details, but I had some complications that necessitated additional hospializtions and some rather uncomfortable procedures. I used to listen to this over and over again. I used it as a self hypnosis tool. The doctor said they couldn't believe how I could jut lay there and let them do what they had to do without flinching ot crying our. God Bless you Greg, wherever you are.

5. Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana: Try singing, no screaming, this song at the top of your lungs when you're filled with rage. 'Nuff said.

That's all folks! (Well for now)
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I am a plodding realist.

In my eulogy (which hopefully is far in the future) I doubt if anyone will refer to me as a visionary or an inspiring leader of men.

When I think about great men of vision, I think of people like Mohandas Ghandi, Thomas Jefferson, Jesus of Nazareth or Martin Luther King. Jefferson, Ghandi and King were master politicians. Jesus and King could move crowds with their oratory. I admire the idealists but I believe that it is the realists that make the idealists ideal a reality. The world’s greatest architect isn’t much without a construction crew. I am the eternal assistant, toiling behind the scenes to turn the blueprints into an edifice. I like being the guy who runs the crew.

I am proud to be a plodding realist because without the planners, marchers, sitters and signers, the idealists would be nothing but madmen shouting into the wind.

I can respect an idealist but I respect the idealists more who, within their lofty ideas, have the wisdom and ability to be realistic about what it will take to bring them to fruition. As much as I can’t imagine Christianity without the St Paul, think of all that work done by those 70 disciples deployed by Jesus. Think of how many miles those 35 pairs of people logged while Saul of Tarsus was helping stone St Stephen. Imagine the Civil Rights Movement without all of those bodies linking arms and singing “We Shall Overcome” or the American Revolution without the majors and captains who marshaled the soldiers and executed George Washington’s vision. Yeah, imagine.

Idealists might have the lofty goals but a lofty goal without a good anchor will just float away like a helium balloon (Look at the experiments in utopian societies in the 19th century.) For me a yin and yang thing is key. To dream is fine; to execute is good; to dream and then execute the dream is heaven.
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I’ve been thinking of starting a blog for a while and I have no idea how long it’ll hold my short attention span. Here is the merest sliver of who I am:

1. I am the eldest of 2 children.

2. I have no living children and never will.

3. I have been married once. I think that was my lifetime quota.

4. I love to write but can’t punctuate worth a damn.

5. I have lived in New Jersey my whole life and love it here.

6. I swear like a sailor (or truckdriver or librarian or whatever)

7. I love to read, classics are my favorite.

8. My favorite color is deep, clear cobalt blue.

9. I have a sexy voice and laugh (so people tell me)

10. I find it easier to joke around men because I think women take things too seriously. (Yes, I know this is a generalization…..)

11. Charles Dickens, Victor Hugo and Thomas Hardy are my favorite authors. I have read every book written by all three of them (most of them more then once.)

12. I am both fat and beautiful. The “F” word freaks a lot of people out. Sucks to be them. It’s a description, not a slur.

13. I am a movie fanatic; if it’s on film I’ve probably seen it. Feel free to hit me up for suggestions and about what to rent or see.

14. I’ve seen The Godfather over a dozen times. I still jump when Fredo gets killed.

15. I am a technoholic. I will never have a computer beefy or fast enough; never have a flash drive too big. Technology is my crack

16. I know how to bake bread and I’m pretty good at it.

17. My 3 favorite places on earth are (1) Cape May, New Jersey, USA; (2) Bermuda; (3) Laying on the deck of a cruise ship in the middle of the Atlantic on the way to Bermuda

18. I will carry a purse until it literally falls apart and then I will spend weeks trying to find the perfect one again because I know it will have to last years.

19. The Foo Fighters are amazing. Ben Folds is amazing. The Clash was amazing. God bless you Joe Strummer.

20. I don't like hot weather. I would rather be cold and snuggled under a blanket than sweating and trying to stay cool.

21. I hate camping. I hate the bugs, the lack of bathrooms, and smoke from the fire. Give me a hotel room anyday.

22. I love to surprise people with gifts.

23. Did I mention that I hate the term BBW? Not every fat woman is beautiful and not every beautiful woman is fat. I see the two as independent concepts. Articulating this does not endear me to people.

24. [ profile] yohannon is one of the coolest people alive. I bow to his awesomeness (And no, you don’t really know me)

25. I am terrified to fly in an airplane.

26. I have a severe phobia of snakes. Spiders are not a bother. I am allergic to bees

27. I am a cancer survivor. To save my life, my doctors performed a radical hysterectomy which left large scar that runs from my navel down to my pubic bone.

28. Feminism is about making life choices. Pick a traditional path, be a trailblazer, we need both kinds of women in society, it’s all good. I think old school feminism has lost sight of this.

29. I am a very sensual and sexual person. Having a hysterectomy *did not* change that (thank god!) I'm always searching for my next orgasm

30. I am pro life but in Roman Catholic sort of way. I think that capital punishment is wrong and I think abortion is wrong. I have no problem with the concepts of wealth, class or status but believe that one must pay a just, livable wage to one’s employees. (Google “Pax Christi”) I am not threatened, upset or freaked out by people who disagree with me; I believe that reasonable, decent people can disagree on these issues. However, there must always be room for dialog.

31. I piss Liberals off with my conservative viewpoints (see #30) and I piss Conservatives off with my liberal viewpoints. I eschew all labels except one: Human.

32. I love driving and want to drive cross country

33. I will talk to anyone about my belief system in an appropriate situation but I think proselytizing sucks.
34. I am a bundle of contradictions wrapped in soft brown skin.

35. I love coffee, the taste as well as the buzz. I used to smoke.

37. I can’t wiggle my nose but I can arch my right eyebrow

38. My favorite drink is a Jack and Coke with 2 lime wedges or a screwdriver made with fresh squeezed orange juice.

39. I don't like the taste of beer.

40. If you think you know who I am, I assure you, you don’t.

41. I am a Gemini; we are the bullshit artists of the Zodiac. I am a writer and talker extraordinaire

Perhaps I will post another 41 some day.

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