My Update, Let Me Show You It.
Nov. 6th, 2007 11:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cinema_babeI am alive but in LiveJournal lockout mode; this is my weekly visit.
The Great American Novel is progressing, easier than I thought, harder than I thought, but at least I'm moving in the right direction.
The project from Hell is sucking my soul and sanity out out through my nose. The big hurdle will be next week but in the meantime, this thing is wearing me out physically as well as mentally. Virtual hugs are appreciated, Flesh-Hugs even more so.
I'm on here rarely and sporadically, I don't know that I will be able to get completely caught up on my LJ FList so if anything important happens (death, birth, fire, or flood) please let me know off-line 'cause I prolly won't see it here till the weekend (email, text message or cell phone are the best ways to get me.)
I'm having a bit of anxiety tonight. I need reassurance that, I understand on an intellectual level, is impossible for anyone to give. I do not want to become a self fulfilling prophecy and end up with a handful of dust. Yet, I truly envy people who can throw their arms open wide and say, "I Need" and feel secure that their need will be met. I am having a hard time getting past the feeling that if I do something like this.... I do not like being afraid. OK, I've got to stop doing this to myself; I'm starting to feel like a dog chasing their own tail.
On a less emo note, I'm planning on being at Game Night on Saturday; good times and friendly faces are just the tonic I need.
The Great American Novel is progressing, easier than I thought, harder than I thought, but at least I'm moving in the right direction.
The project from Hell is sucking my soul and sanity out out through my nose. The big hurdle will be next week but in the meantime, this thing is wearing me out physically as well as mentally. Virtual hugs are appreciated, Flesh-Hugs even more so.
I'm on here rarely and sporadically, I don't know that I will be able to get completely caught up on my LJ FList so if anything important happens (death, birth, fire, or flood) please let me know off-line 'cause I prolly won't see it here till the weekend (email, text message or cell phone are the best ways to get me.)
I'm having a bit of anxiety tonight. I need reassurance that, I understand on an intellectual level, is impossible for anyone to give. I do not want to become a self fulfilling prophecy and end up with a handful of dust. Yet, I truly envy people who can throw their arms open wide and say, "I Need" and feel secure that their need will be met. I am having a hard time getting past the feeling that if I do something like this.... I do not like being afraid. OK, I've got to stop doing this to myself; I'm starting to feel like a dog chasing their own tail.
On a less emo note, I'm planning on being at Game Night on Saturday; good times and friendly faces are just the tonic I need.
